Week 8 Posting

A reoccurring theme that I see through my research and interviews with informants is that people are continually relying on God to answers their questions of the unknown and to give comfort from fear and the unpredictable.  Many if not all people that I have spoken to have said that when they have hit hard times and cant seem to see the light that they simply ask God to to it in his hands.  That it all has meaning and part of a bigger picture.  Which I totally agree, we are apart of something greater, I am just not sure that my "God" is a man in the sky and can come down and directly interfere with my life.  With this theme running through my project everytime I have an interview with an informant I can tell that I would not be accepted into this way of thinking simply because I don't know what this is and it all means.  And to be a practicing Christian in this subculture that is one of the first steps.  To believe that it is this way, or have "faith."  I think that now I may be even more of an outsider in this culture than I had initally assumed, I cannot get myself to believe that their is a divine right and this holy person has a set plan for all of us.  Which is a major foundation of the subculture, but what I have found is that through my research I have found a more focused belief of mine rather then believing in nothing.  The belief of pantheism, being that something is above us it has a greater knowing than we do, I am just not sure as to what it is.....and I can go around and say that I know infact it is this.  I am thankful to have figured that out.